STRESSFUL WEEK PLUS A NEW MEANING

Today was the end of a stressful week. Today I had a paper due at 9:45AM and I didn't wake up until 9:15. The thing that made me mad was the fact that I set 2 alarms to make sure I woke up ontime. I still had so much to do. I had to get dressed and go all the way to the library to print out the paper and I had to get to my professors office. I was on a major time crunch and I was so scared that I wasn't going to make it. But I made it just in time. I told my professer the story and she just laughed. Now that I think about it the situation is funny now. But that was the highlight of my school day.

Tonight my room mate Brittany is taking me to a club. It should be fun. The only club I have been to has been a gay club. But it is deeper than just going out to the club to me. All through middle school and high school I knew I was not very interested in males. I don't believe that I chose this lifestyle it just kind of happened. I was scared of accepting this myself because i know that being this way is frowned upon. I hear the same things everyday "that is not the right way to live." or things like "God didn't intend women to be with women" but as far as i know everybody is a sinner and the only person that can judge me is the big guy above. So when I decided that I was going to come to college. I told myself that I was not going to lie about the fact that I am gay. I know it makes some people uncomfortable but I am who I am. If i can't be true to myself than who will be true to me.

MY FRIENDS AT SCHOOL

It has been crazy since the last time I have wrote. My friend told me about her room mate. I was so happy that i didn't get her room mate. Her room mate ate all of her food and even stole money from her. That is so rude. I believe that I would have been kicked out of school if my room mate did that to me. It is one thing to steal food but steal money that is just wrong. My friend took it well though. Violence is never the answer my temper would have got the best of me though. She is strong I wish I could be like that. I'm so glad I have a positive friend like that. I also have another friend named Tasha. She is the greatest. She helps me study and just keeps me company when I need it. I believe she has influenced me the most out of my friends in college. She works so hard and she is so determined. Meeting her has made my transition from home to college a lot easier.





I wrote this blog because I am so happy about meeting these people. Without them school would have sucked really bad lol!. I just wanted to dedicate a blog to them. They really deserve it.

Tasha and Sharita

*BFF*

A REAL COLLEGE STUDENT

Everything is getting better with my mom and my girlfriend. I have talked to both of them about the issues I am having. But school is getting busy everyday that passes by. I have had three papers due this week so I have been beyond busy. Trying to fit everything into your schedule is harder than you think. I try to have a big social life but trying to balance all that out with school is hard lol. But college is really sinking in I'm getting a bit better at listening in class :-) but i could do better. But not much has happened. I'm planning on going to see my first school play tomorrow so I hope that it is worth watching. I'll write about it when I write tomorrow.

MANY THOUGHTS

This week has been rough. I have so much stuff going on back home with my girlfriend and problems with my mom. I'm trying so hard to balance everything out with school but it is so hard. Knowing that my girlfriend is feeling so bad makes me feel bad and knowing that my mom is upset with things just makes me think about so many things. I'm trying so hard to get everything back the way it was. But there is only so much I can do i'm only one person. I'm hoping everything will get better soon. I just have to try to make everything like it was. But while I just sit here and think about all my problems. Nothing will be the same because as time goes by change is going to occur. Not all change is good and it seems like the changes in my life can get no worse. Hopefully a good change will come.

Busy Day

Yesterday was one of my best days in school. I feel like I accomplished so much and that makes me so happy. I had to print out of my outline for speech which I believe will be my toughest class. I worked so hard on that outline i'm just proud of my work. I got a lot done in English too! I'm just starting to understand what she means about my writing. I'm going to start working on all of my papers I have coming up so i can have one of the best papers. I just plan on accomplishing a lot this semester.

Besides class I have a lot of stuff to get done to be ready to go back to Rock Hill. I can't wait to get there I miss my best friends and my girlfriend. It will be soooooooo fun! I just have to make sure I get all my work started. But that's all for now I will write tomorrow!

I usually hate Tuesdays but today went rather well. My classes seemed to go by so quick. When i got up this morning I didn't feel very well but as the day progressed i started to feel a bit better. I learned some things in biology and had to start another chapter but that didn't go too bad. I'm getting better at keeping up with her. As a matter of fact I'm going to study really hard for the test Thursday. I think it will go well. I'm just going to calm myself during the test and try hard to finish each question. The highlight of today was giving speeches in public speaking class. I could tell that many people thought about what they had to do. Me personally I thought nobody could talk about me better than I could but now that my speech is over somebody else could have told my feelings much better. I was only talking for like 10 seconds. I was so scared. Talking infront of people has always been hard to me. Hopefully I will get better throughout the semester. But that was all for today hopefully tomorrow will be more eventful

THE FEELING OF COLLEGE

The feeling of college is really beginning to set in. I find it really hard trying to balance everything out such as school and my personal life. I've been caught up in trying to solve issues in my relationships and that took my mind off of school but I know that I shouldn't do that. I have been making new friends though. I talk to a girl named Ashley we have the same schedule so it's easy talking to her. I also talk to another girl Kimberly. She is so nice. I'm glad i'm able to talk to some new people aside from my 2 other friends. Overall college life is coming together.

Thursday was a long day. I had 4 classes and i thought it would be worse than what it was. I usually forget to do things in my classes but this week went alright. I'm more comfortable in classes now so i ask all the questions i want to ask without feeling simple. I'm more confident about how my grades will be too. I have been studying with my friend she pushes me to do better so I think I will be fine this semester.

Rough Day

Today was supposed to be one of my easiest days of the week but today it seemed like the hardest. I really didn't feel good at all this morning but i got up and went to breakfast anyway. My head and my stomach was hurting so bad. When i came back to my room i went back to sleep and was late for my first class of the day horrible i know. But after I ate lunch i felt a bit better. I took my second math test today and i think i did bad on it but i will see. But that was my bad day I'll write again tomorrow